Well, on saturday night i texted him i was leaving him for good. I wasnt in love with him and i do not want or need a sexual relationship anymore. He said he already knew i wasnt in love anymore. The past couple days ive seen hin, and he has literally been crying off and on. He rarely cries. Ive seen him cry 5 times total in 9 years. And today he was emotional and stated hearing i dont love him anymore makes him to want to kill himself. I have fallen out of love with him in 2010. All sexual feelings vanished. I do not know what he wants me to do. What he expects. He think we should be together. The thing is, he has treated me like shit the past 2 years cuz i hate sex. He also has made me feel unworthy. Like im just a damn object to be used. I feel like screaming. I feel bad cuz he is crying. But i dont feel bad if he is threatening to hurt himself. He has done that to me over and over. It used to work. But i want to stand by my words and not have him thinking its ok to treat me the way he does. I am at a loss on how to deal with this crud......i feel like my head is going to blow up.