I never really had friends growing up,I was picked on through school and I had only one or two freinds that I would play with on a regular basis.I was very shy kid and never got into trouble. I played by myself ALOT and often spent 90% of my day alone (as in no friends or siblings) until I was about 17 or 18.
From this you can imagine I have alot of social akwarness and dont have many friends, although I know alot of people they are more or less just "people I know" .Anyways I am now in my 30s and married and I have a daughter who is like her dad a social butterfly and the complete opposite of what I was at her age, But even at my age I cant help but still feel like a lonely adult now, I feel everyone is alway judging me or leaving me out of things because of my akwardness..I spend most nights sitting on the couch surfing the internet and watching TV. I feel sad alot when I was not invited somewhere by someone and wonder why I was not invited. Is this normal? Does ANYONE else feel this way?