I didn't acknowledge your hood rat pack, mostly because I know it would turn into something unnecessary and likely regrettable.
I just want you to know some things.
Yes, I am fat. Baby cow sized fat. I am beyond fat, I am super morbidly obese. I know this.
I am trapped in this body, I wasn't always like this. Once a upon a time I was young and fit, even sexy. I used to love running, playing lacrosse, rock climbing and many other things. I had friends, a social life and fat people were repulsive, how could they let themselves go like that?
Then one day something awful happened. I was in an accident that destroyed my body. I suddenly became unable to roll over in bed, sit up, walk, even get dressed alone. I became shut in, trapped in my house. One by one my friends and family abandoned me, because I was no longer able to do the activities they could, or access the businesses, homes or apartments that I was able to when I walked.
I try not to go out anymore. Its a monumental effort to get dressed, in part because of my laundry list of medical problems and in part because of my size. Mostly it has to do with being around others. I fear others, I fear being judged or stared at, comments and stares.
I am human, just like you. I am no less human than anyone else because I am fat. I have the same feelings, the same desires, aspirations and at one time, goals as anyone else.
Its not the first time I've had someone say something to me. My own family has made snide comments, backhanded remarks. I'm not deaf, I'm not stupid and I'm not ignorant. Up until now I just took it in stride, knowing that I was working on something important.. me.
As long as I put the effort in to improve myself, I could laugh in their faces.
But I was wrong. I won't get into too much detail, but I've tried to lose weight. I'm sick.. so sick I belong in a nursing home and none of it has to do with my weight. I'm fat because I'm sick.. not sick because I'm fat. (Although I'm sure it makes it worse..)
I go to walmart after midnight for a reason..because there are fewer people. Fewer people to make rude comments, take pictures without my permission, follow me around the store, or moo in my direction.
Less people to judge or harass me, less worry.
But tonight, you showed me exactly what society and humanity has come down to. A collective group of ignorant, rude, narcissistic people who place so little value on other humans that they feel the need to point out every critical flaw and humiliate them, to make themselves feel superior.
You turned the simple act of getting a sympathy card for the loss of a family member into a nightmare that I will never forget and a lesson in humanity.. or the lack there of.
There is one thing I want you to know though.
You can fix fat. You can't fix ugly, stupid, or being a disgusting piece of trash on the inside.
The Neighboorhood "Big Bitch"--