My daughter isn't going to have a 1st birthday party....
And I feel bad about it.
And I also feel bad about feeling bad.
It's a TRADITION. It's fun. It's messy. And my boys were celebrated in that way.....and it hurts that she's not going to get to.
On the other hand, the reason I had to cancel. My grandma has been in the hospital all week. They sent her to a bigger hospital. She was supposed to have surgery today.....it couldn't happen. She's not strong enough. They've been trying to find a way around it all week, but they can't.
She has a 50/50 chance of making it through surgery. But if they don't do it at all....she won't live. I feel HORRIBLE for feeling bad about this.
She'll be having the surgery tomorrow. Saturday was supposed to be Christlynn's first birthday party.