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My last chance letter.. What do you think? (PIOG)

Posted by on Sep. 7, 2009 at 10:13 PM
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Dear Cliff,

  After 20 years you should be the one person that I should be able to tell my fears, my hopes, my thoughts & my dreams too. But you are the last person that I can come to. You are the last person you want me to come to if I do need to talk. You seem to be in your own little world & the only way to get in your world is if you allow it. This is true for all of your family. There are so many things that I would love to talk to you about, but I will never be able to.

  I don't want a reply to this letter as you will think that this is "Just another excuse" So don't write back.

  I am going to try to go a different way with this letter; this is my last chance letter. I want to bring God into this marriage. I know that He is our last hope for a marriage. I have a book that I am putting with this letter & a movie. The book as you can see is "What wives wish their husbands knew about women." (Don't worry I am getting the one for me to read too) I also put Fireproof in here too, Please watch it.  These 2 things won't change our marriage, only we can do that. If we want it to. The book will explain alot of things about women that men may just not think about & I know the book that I will be getting will tell me alot of things about guys that I may not think of. These are both God based objects. If you refuse God & his help then I will know that we are done. I can think of all the things I want you to hear & can tell myself that if I tell you the way I really feel you would change, but I can't get to the part of opening my mouth the right way. My words just never come out the way you need to hear them. So I just say the little things that I can & hope that one will work, my hope fades more & more everyday. I have chosen to take that hope & lock it away with my emotions. 

  I have prayed to God that he would show me a way "out, anyway out" but yet he never answers. So I asked for God to take my Love that I feel for you away All of it, but he hasn't. I asked Him to let me Hate you, but he won't. I have asked for Him to provide me an answer, but I never saw it. So just recently I asked God to let me Love you again, let me find a way to get a feeling that tells me that I need you, or that this marriage will work. And I saw no answer in that till Sunday While at church Darren was preaching on living by the world, not of the would. That really doesn't apply to our marriage if you just hear it that way, but it told me that I needed to stop asking for help for our marriage from the people in this world & start asking for God to help in our marriage. I need you to know that God needs to be the center of our marriage. He needs to be the only one we turn too when we need help. I know that this will not be easy in anyway. I know that we both have to want this (& from what God is telling me I ain't going anywhere anytime soon)

  So if you accept Gods help in this, then maybe we can make these last 20 years not a waste of time, but a learning process. We can have the marriage that your mom & dad had in the last 15yrs to his last days. The difference is you go to church. I know Newburn believed in God, but never would set foot in church. You must have something; Because God got you back into church. Let God live in our lives.


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by New Member on Sep. 21, 2009 at 3:15 AM

Go get him girl!! Good luck! May god's will be with you!

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