i am due within the next couple weeks with my third child/ second natural vbac. while i know there is no way i will opt for medication .. . i am still so afraid of the pain that is coming my way. with my last birth.. . i basically began in transition at home. i awoke to a pop which was not my water breaking but we guess my cervix opening . . .came with very intense pain. contractions were every 2 minutes if not less. in less than half an hour i had to push. i was in shock and even though i had prepared for a natural birth, took my hypnobirth classes, studied up on everything i could think of to give myself confidence and knowledge. . . .the pain was so massively overwhelming. i had a great support system . .andthey will be here again with me for this birth. still. .. i remeber how much i fought the pain even knowing i shouldnt be. i was in flight mode til the end. i did not enjoy my son after he was born . . i wanted so much for someone to just knock me out! lol. i am not sure if it was all just due to how quickly it came on (labor lasted a total of less than 2 hours). i can guess this one may happen quickly. . i cvant know for sure. . but either way i am just terrified. i have worked so hard on this my entire pregnancy but i just cant seem to get past it. any ideas on how i can? i dont want to panic when it begins. . .i want to be excited. . i want to have a clear mind.
on Nov. 18, 2010 at 12:38 AM