Ok. My birth was the worst experience ever. I was birth raped. From the nurse attempting to manually dilate me. I thought she was checking me but refused to remove her hand even though I was screaming. They hung pitocin and refused to turn it off. Completely ignored me. My dr was talking on her phone with her hand in me. She told me "the baby didn't get in there with your legs that close together, she isn't coming out like that either", didn't delay cord clamping. I told her not to cut it and she just looked at me and did anyway. Bitched about having to leave her sons birthday party to deliver mine.
Do I need to go to therapy? Would it help? My dd is 13 months and it still pisses me off. There were other things (like them doing eye goop when I said no, and had needle in hand about to do vit K and I had to scream). Handing off my dd instead of giving her to me. Her APGAR was 8 so no reason. It has been a long time to still bother me.
on Apr. 28, 2012 at 9:38 PM