At this time I was admitted to the hospital to be induced. I was so disappointed that I wasn't going to get to go into labor on my own, but my little boy had stopped growing. I had a partial placental abruption at 17 weeks, so I was glad that I had made it to 39 weeks. The doctors had wanted me induced at 37 weeks, but I begged and pleaded to let my little boy stay in one more week since he had had some growth. Then during week 38, there was a huge miscommunication between the doctors, so I made it one more week. Then at the 39 week appointment, there was no more discussions, he had to come out now!
Last year at this time, I was so emotional before the indiction because I was afraid of all the bad things that could happen because of the bad shape my placenta was in. They warned me that I could start bleeding out, my baby could hemmorhage before making it through the birth canal, and so many more unthinkable things. I was glad to be educated, but it was still scary.
One year ago today, I consented to cervadil because I was only 2-3 centimeters dilated. Luckily, I had no side effects from it.
One year ago today, the nurses told me to walk around the hospital to see if it would help me go into labor. I went to the cafeteria with my DH and enjoyed a nice lunch with him. We got "caught" by the nurses, but I said I wasn't going to go into labor hungry.
One year ago today, while walking around the hospital for 3 hours, I suddenly felt the baby's head drop and I started walking like a duck.
One year ago today, as I was laying in bed hooked up to the fetal monitor, I went into labor on my own :) YAY! Dodged the pitocin bullet!
One year ago today, I cried very hard as the doctor broke my water. I didn't want to, but since the risks of complications were so great the longer I was in labor, I consented. I was in labors for 5 hours with my first son, so the doctors were hoping for another speedy labor.
One year ago today, I was the first patient my nurse had ever taken care of the wanted to be naked while in labor. I gave her full warning ahead of time I was not wearing that stupid gown. I only want to feel my dh's hands, nothing else.
One year ago today, I was in labor for 5 hours and did not ask or consent to any pain meds. I was deeply afraid that of I had meds in my system already and things went wrong, it would just be an avalanche of meds that would follow.
One year ago today, the nurse told me to do a practice push, and I pushed the top of his head out. One nurse yelled a stop while another ran down the hall yelling for the doctor. I laughed.
One year ago today, I never felt such sweet relief as when they put my little miracle in my chest.
One year ago today, my relief turned scary really fast when the umbilical cord broke while my placenta was being delivered. One nurse had her hand on the phone to call the NICU and the rest of the nurses came running over.
One year ago, a higher power was watching over my son and I because we had no complications. My placenta as able to be delivered the rest of the way, but everyone in the room said how horrible it looked. Later, when the pathology report came back it said that my placenta was 80% calcified and it had an infection.
Today, I am holding my one year old amazed by how fast the year has gone. There have been overwhelming and trying times, especially since his brother is only 19 months older than him, but i try to take time everyday to appreciate that everyone is healthy.
Thank you for reading this and allowing me to share my birth story.