So, I was diagnosed with bipolar but my doctor refused to even talk to me about med while I'm breastfeeding. I also have awful anxiety problems. I am not a big fan of taking anything while breastfeeding in the first place but when NO doctor will even talk to you about meds while breastfeeding is discouraging. So, I decided not even try anymore doctors and told DH I would wean at 12 months with our last child then start meds. Well, DD is our last and will be 12 months next month. I really think weaning her would be way more stressful and anxiety inducing on me then just continuing nursing with no meds at all. I am so no where near ready to wean her and she is not ready either. The Hyland's Nerve Tonic helps, when I remember to take it. My husband is usually very supportive of my choices but he is also tired of my out burst and roller coaster mood swings and to be honest I am too. I am so up in the air. There are moments I am so tired of breastfeeding, I have breastfed 3 kids for almost 4 years straight, non tandem unfortunately. I am not really sure what I am looking for, if its answers or encouragement or what. I think I just needed to get all this out to like minded people. Most of my IRL friends would not understand. Between my bipolar and RA I have had many, many friends and doctors try to talk me out of breastfeeding in the first place. I am so stressed out with everything that is going on. She's my baby girl, our last, I am not ready to finish breastfeeding but at the same time I am so tired of being so anxious! I am tired of deleting 80% of my FB comments because my anxiety goes through the roof as soon as I hit the enter button. Going out in public is getting hard. I know that none of this is healthy but I dont know what to do. Just thinking about it makes me very anxious!
Thank you for just letting me rambel.