I am due December 1 with my 2nd baby. With my first I was induced and had an epidural.. I made that decision with no knowledge of either. This time around I have been feeling pretty good about a natural birth.. I know its better for both my baby and I. Well today while I was in the shower I was just thinking about how this Saturday is officially the beginning of My third trimester and I freeeeaked out, like I'm pretty sure that's the closest to having an anxiety attack I have ever gotten. Its not the pain of the contractions or the pressure that scares me, I'm pretty tough, its the fact that I tore and had an episiotomy with my first and I'm nervous that I wont be able to handle that part. I am hemophobic (phobia of blood) and with Avery I handled it pretty well because I made sure I couldn't see anything and I told them not to tell me what was happening down there, I couldn't feel anything but a little pressure so it was all good. I'm still set in my decision and have no intention of changing my mind I just need a little pep talk to calm my nerves!
on Sep. 5, 2012 at 10:54 PM