I'm on the verge of tears over this... and i seriously hope i don't get bashed because i so can't handle that right now.
I just found out that i am expecting my 4th child. I'm about 5 weeks along. Due in the spring.
This is not good timing at all and my hubby and I are heart sick over this.
We already have 3 children... and yes we wanted more but in 3 years time. we are not in a position to have a 4th right now.
I am SOO completely torn here. My heart and gut says keep... but my brain is saying "NO!! you can't this will ruin everything!!"
If we are going to do something about this we have to figure it out with in the next week or so....
I feel like Termination is off the table for me... It would RUIN me i think. And Hubby says Adoption is out for him.. but we borth aren't sure if it's viable to keep... I don't know what to do here anymore. I've thought this to death.. and the only thing i can come up with is KEEPING becuase i so very much want this baby.
Oh man i just can't seem to explain anything. I need some sort of plan. I am soo mixed up and confused and heartbroken...