Gender Reveal and a Bad Reaction. . . .Please no judging.
So today DH and I had our 20 week ultrasound with baby number 3. Come to find out we are having another girl. My reaction was tears and I hate to admit it, but it was tears of sadness. I am upset that we are having yet another girl. I know! I know! Be thankful that I can even have a baby. A lot of people aren't as lucky. Trust me, I am so ashamed at how badly I am reacting to the news that I can't even look DH in the face. I have been trying to see on the bright side of things, but I can't stop being mad and upset about the whole thing. Am I the only mother that has felt this way? Please do not judge me. I have been crying all afternoon and am just looking for some support. This has been really hard for me to write and admit.
Thank you for all of the support. I am feeling much better now. I am very excited to have another little girl to raise. Part of the reason I was so upset the other day was because my DH told me he didn't want more children after this child. I really thought I was having a boy because my pregnancy was so different this time. So when we found out, my hopes for a son were crushed. Ever since I was a little girl I wanted to have a son. I wanted that mother/son bond that lasts forever. I wanted to be the first women he ever loved. I just love the idea of it all! Since this day, my DH has informed me that he now wants two more children. I am very excited because I have always wanted a big family since I came from one. I still have a chance to have my son and if I don't, I am completely 100% okay with that. I know hormones played a huge part in my reaction. I will know better for next time. For those of you that I have offended with this post well... Get over it because I sure have! :)