When I was 19 and got pregnant with my son, I was very naive to my options and what I did and didn't want. I ended up getting induced at 38 weeks because I was SUPER swollen...BP was slightly elevated and had minimal protein in my urine (BP was literally like 4 over both top and bottom of what my dr wanted), went in to the hospital the next morning to be induced and BP was perfect, there was no protein... I didn't really question anything that was done, just went with it. The only thing I fought was the epidural, however, I spent my ENTIRE 36 hours of what turned into a failed induction stuck in bed - no tub, no birthing ball, no walking...NOTHING. After 5 doses of cytotec, constant pitocin and back to back contractions for over 32 hours (and my dr broke my water at only 1.5 dilated)...caved at 34 hours and got the epidural since my doctor convinced me it might speed up my labor and if not, I needed it for my csection anyways. Ended in a csection after 36 long hours confined to bed.
Now, I'm wanting to do a VBAC, but really want to use a midwife. Home birth isn't even an option because midwives aren't allowed to attend home births. We have ONE birthing center, I got my hopes up because it's right by me...turns out I can't labor and deliver there because of a csection - okay, figured I could deal...at least I'd have a midwife to work with. Nope...not that either. They're not taking any new VBACs right now either, which puts me right back at having a doctor again..
I'm super bummed that now I'm having to completely reframe my thinking... They were able to luckily refer me over to a doctor, same doctor that is acting medical director and oversees their birthing center deliveries. I was also given a list for doulas...looks like I'm gonna end up finding a doula and laboring as long as possible at home - the last thing I feel like going through is what I did with my son.. I got SOOO irritated being asked over and over if I wanted an epidural - if I repeatedly say NO, I will ask if I want one, don't offer it again you'd think they could back off..
Just feeling really defeated with the lack of options in the state...especially since this midwife I was wanting to go to at the birthing center has phenomenial VBAC rates!