Feeling insecure in our decision to send our kids to public school
My husband has always wanted to home school, I have always been a fence sitter. I am the stay at home parent, though, and I in no way feel qualified to teach my children everything they need to know. Educators go to school for years learning how to help children retain knowledge and I have none of that expeience. And my daughter is starting school in just a few months...
I just feel so strange and torn about it. She is VERY excited at the prospect of being around other kids all day and getting to play on the playground and be with a teacher. She really wants to do it. I'm just so nervous. It will be so strange not to have her here for several hours a day and to ahve her come home and know things I didn't teach her or witness her learning. The school she will be attending does really well on standardized testing, I don't doubt that she will be getting a good education, but I worry about her being pounded into a mold I don't quite agree with. I worry about her getting hurt (Newtown JUST happened in my mind). I worry that she won't be getting enough opportunities to express herself and grow in the arts, if that's what interests her.
I worry that I am basing my decision to send her to public school on what is easiest, not what is best. I'd send her to private school, which I feel is a decent compromise, if I could afford it, but I can't. I'd teach her at home, but I really honestly don't think I'm up to the task, not to mention that I want to go back to work eventually.
Public school really seems like what will work best for our family, but I know that the education system needs serious overhaul and I know that I don't want her to be taught what to think intead of how to think.
It's very overwhelming.
I don't know what anyone could say that would make it better, but I thought if anyone would be able to help, it would be you guys. Sorry for the ramble :/