long story short:
my dh walked out me a month ago. i was 6 month pregnant. now i have to move in to my mom's guest room with my 2 kids. there is no way to have the birth there and i dont know when i will have my own place.
I spoke with my midwife and she was very understanding. the plan is now to stay where ever i am comfortable until it's time t go to the hospital. she has rights at the new hospital birth center which i have heard is very nice. she has promised to make things as home like as possible. no nurses, no ob, no anaesthesia walking in as they want. she will have her assistant and ill have my great aunt there. i dont have to be on the monitors and i can do as i want. i am still not in love with the idea but i know she will help be however she can. i trust her and am very grateful that she is the one taking care of me right now.
my biggest fear is labor now. i dont know how i am going to handle all the emotions that come with it. i cant practice my hynobirth stuff anymore, i try but cant relax. i dont feel ready this time around now and i dont know how to get in that place again. any ideas? i am already going to see a counselor and she helps a bits.