Keep in mind Im 37 weeks pregnant and super emotional, haha.
Ive had three natural births. Im not sure if this makes sense to anyone but my thoughts and feelings and values on what I put into my body, natural births, bonding, nature....its all more of my beliefs than it is just my thoughts on it. Not my RELIGION obviously but I live by these values every day. I really believe in the body's ability to heal itself blah blah blah I wont bore you.
I just found out I need a c-section. I went from not even seeing an OB for the whole nine months, and planning a birth at a healing center with my midwife to being rushed to a specialist. Baby is in a very tangled up breech position and probably stuck there. I tried spinning babies and it made it much worse. Her head is bulging out between my ribs and my hip, shes oblique with one leg up behind her head/face and the other is crossed over and straight down into my vagina. I have three hour labors and Im an hour and a half from the hospital, otherwise I would have options to wait until labor started, try to deliver breech ect. They cant do an external version because of the risk of breaking her legs. OB doesn't want me to try things like long walks to help her flip because a long walk could start labor.
Anxiety about surgery and stuff aside, Im just devestated at the thought of her being taken away after I get a peek over a damn curtain. I asked if I could have her right away and her not go anywhere and he told me no one can force me to do anything I dont want to, is that true? I cant see them being very lax about surgical procedures, I had to fight for a glass of apple juice during my last natural labor for gods sake! I just have a few questions for anyone who has had a c section.
Are your arms numb? My friend told me she was numb from the neck down, I DO NOT want this at all!! Is that from a spinal, and could choosing an epidural mean I have mobility in my arms, or was that just a bad spinal? Do I have any hope in delayed cord clamping? I do not want her washed and handled by 5 people before she meets me and prepackaged like a little McBaby. I had a very difficult time bonding with my second son, its something that im ashamed of and brings a lot of guilt. Its not something I have talked to my DH about or any friends and Im scared of it happening again.
I KNOW this is best for baby thats why I made the appointment. This is all just very new to me, I dont know anything about it and Im worried. Any stories of your c sections are very welcome, thanks for reading all of this.