I'm freaking out! I don't know what to do!!!
I live in a small town and haven't been able to find an OB that I am happy with, so I chose a homebirth midwife. I have alot of prefrences that I demand at labor and delivery. I"m sure most of you do to. That's why I decide for a midwife, because she would support me in those.
At the same time I also think I would feel more comfortable in a hospital. Yes, I'm doubting myself. And I hate that. I want to have security and know that my body can do this. BUT I also don't want to be away from the kids and I would also like them to be somewhat present for the birth.
I've met with two ob's and one midwife. I DID NOT like the ob's and feel somewhat okay with the midwife. But I feel like I need to decide soon.
With my last pregnancy I went with a midwife till month seven then switched to a doc, but in a different town an hour away. I don't want to do that again, I want a relationship with my provider.
WHAT DO I DO??!!!!