Okay so first I have to say that at this point I have taken four at home pregnancy tests. Two of the ones that only show you in double pink lines and two that tell you in bold letters "PREGNANT OR NOT PREGNANT" The two with the pink lines are one really bold and then one not so bold next to it.... so I though you know well maybe it's just a hormone fluctuation. But then I took the digital reading ones and sure enough it popped up saying pregnant. I took one yesterday in the morning. Then again today and both are saying the same thing!!! But I haven't been to the dr yet to confirm it.
But I'm scared crazy. I live with my parents and they let me move in with Gabi but y mom has been saying that if I get pregnant again that they aare not sure that they are going to let me stay. My husband is a wonderful man and he says that he is starting to get excited about the idea that we might be pregnant. But that small part of me is worried that he might just walk away from me, that he might not want it, and that it is all just an act until he leaves. I know that that is completely irrational but I'm scared of a) being kicked out and b) being left. Since we are not yet legally state recognized married. But we are close enough that I call him my husband and it feels right.
On top of all that it will be my second child and I don't even know if I'm doing that well with the first one that I have. Will she like the new one, will they get along, can I even handle having two at the same time.
Please someone talk to me and tell me that regardless of all my fears that maybe, just maybe everything will be okay. My yahoo addy is Silver_Dragoncat818 if you feel like talking to me in anyway other than posts. I'll be on and off all day and probably tommorrow too. PS If my tests are right.... I will be due either in May or early June.
Young Mom of One, Proud Pagan, and Trucker's Wife.
But I'm scared crazy. I live with my parents and they let me move in with Gabi but y mom has been saying that if I get pregnant again that they aare not sure that they are going to let me stay. My husband is a wonderful man and he says that he is starting to get excited about the idea that we might be pregnant. But that small part of me is worried that he might just walk away from me, that he might not want it, and that it is all just an act until he leaves. I know that that is completely irrational but I'm scared of a) being kicked out and b) being left. Since we are not yet legally state recognized married. But we are close enough that I call him my husband and it feels right.
On top of all that it will be my second child and I don't even know if I'm doing that well with the first one that I have. Will she like the new one, will they get along, can I even handle having two at the same time.
Please someone talk to me and tell me that regardless of all my fears that maybe, just maybe everything will be okay. My yahoo addy is Silver_Dragoncat818 if you feel like talking to me in anyway other than posts. I'll be on and off all day and probably tommorrow too. PS If my tests are right.... I will be due either in May or early June.
Young Mom of One, Proud Pagan, and Trucker's Wife.
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Things always seem to have a way of working themselves out. Try to keep a positive attitude. A lot of people think they arent doing so well with their firsts thats why they are the practice child ;)
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