Wow. I'm not so sure what I have done to deserve the life that I have but I do know that it could be worse. My twenties were stressful with tragedy and dissapointments. I lost my firstborn son when he was 7 1/2 months old and that pretty much ruined most of my early twenties (although looking back I wish I wouldn't have allowed it to affect me to the extent that it did.) I lost touch with my family and I dropped out of school and started running with the wrong crowd. I found myself in a horrible and abusive relationship and to make things work I became pregnant and had my second child when I was 25. She is beautiful and intelligent and perfect. I stayed with her father for 2 years after she was born. He was abusive however the day he touched me in front of her was the day I left. Of course I already had an exit strategy and I was about 3/4 of the way through it with the help of an amazing therapist. I just skipped the last section which was a great thing.
Throughout my relationship with my daughter's father I developed fibro. It was so bad at one point I had to use a walker just to manouver around my apartment. That is when I started seeing a therapist. I had no idea how the stress of my relationship had taken such a toll on my body. As I broke free from the relationship my fibro started to improve. I felt like I had majority of my life back. It was a great feeling.
A week after I left her father I met my amazing husband although I turned him down at first because at that point I hated men. The second time I met my dh I knew I was going to marry him. It took us a few years and a really slow start but eventually we did marry. He has a daughter that is 6 months younger than my daughter and we have her every other weekend.
About a year ago I was involved in an accident that was deemed my fault. Well of course the accident affected my fibro and the last year hasn't been easy. Although bizarrly throughout all of this I got into contact with my biological father and his family which has allowed me the opportunity to get to know my sister. She has been an amazing asset to my life. So anyway...
The accident has now led to the lawsuit that I mentioned in my other post. Yeah that is how my luck goes. Well you ladies know the rest of my story at the moment. Just very stressful.
I have started my thyroid medicine. So far it is just making me sicker but I am dealing with it. My pain is starting to intensify. My back is killing me all the time. I'm not taking anything for the pain and don't intend to unless it puts way too much stress on my body. Of course as I think my post explains I am a very strong very tough woman. I talked to my doctor and I am hopefully going to start counseling very soon. And of course I have this place for an outlet which really helps.
I have become very overwhelmed with everything and it somewhat difficult to deal with. I am ready for a break and I am trying to accept that my break was meeting my husband and now I don't get a break from all the other stuff I just get someone stronger than I am to help me be strong. That is just how my life goes.
Thank you all for listening and allowing me to get everything off my chest.
yes yes I know what you mean...And thats what we are here for is to help one another out..keep each other strong...
We all need someone to help encourage us to remind us to pat ourselfs on the back every now and then♥♥♥(((HUGS)))†fern
Hugs sweetie! I know what you mean about stress throwing your fibro out of control. We lost our 29 year old daughter last April to a drug overdose. Hubby already had PTSD from the military and of course that made it worse and now we are in the middle of a move to a new house. Hubby threw his back out and my son just had arm surgery, so the packing is on me. All I know is that God has my back and I'll make it through one day at a time. But man is my fibro flaring!
Thank you ladies. Hugs to you as well. It is comforting knowing that I'm not alone.
Life sure seems to throw us some curve balls sometimes. For me I'll be going along and stop and realize hey I don't have any pain today. I'm so use to something hurting that I'm amazed when I don't. lol
You have had a lot of stress in your life but have come thru wonderfully. As for me I do take pain meds and they have been a big help. Don't be afraid to take something if it helps your quality of life.
Glad to have you in the group..
Thank you. Right now I am not taking any pain meds because I am in my first trimester of my pregnancy. A couple of months before I became pregnant I have started developing allergies to all the medicines I have always taken so most of the pain medicines and muscle relaxers I am allergic to. After I have the baby we will try to find something that I can use again. Until then with all the reactions I am scared to try anything because I usually have rashes and severe difficulty breathing.
Quoting deedon:Life sure seems to throw us some curve balls sometimes. For me I'll be going along and stop and realize hey I don't have any pain today. I'm so use to something hurting that I'm amazed when I don't. lol
You have had a lot of stress in your life but have come thru wonderfully. As for me I do take pain meds and they have been a big help. Don't be afraid to take something if it helps your quality of life.
Glad to have you in the group..
Anyone on Nucynta ER?
- jc7981
on Feb. 10, 2012 at 3:20 PM