I have been seeing a therapist for almost 2 yrs. I have expressed to her how badly I wanted to seek treatment, do a retreat, something! She dug up some information for me and I had been looking online for something that would be benificial to my situation. Everything I have found that I love was either too long or way way way too far out from my budget... Ive been stuck, wanting help, but not helping my self in any way, telling myself and those around me that I cannot live like this anymore!! I am finally pulling myself up, and trying to find new ways to help myself.
So I'm trying something different and new for me :) I have decided to try and make myself of a list of accomplishments and mental changes for a month. My list is as follows;
exsersise once a week, take my fish oil daily, with each issue @ work, find the silver lining, in bed by 9pm, burn my old journals, meditate nightly, list 3 daily good things thad happened with the day, (even if its only that i have my health, my son and his happiness) cut back on my smoking, cut back on my soda intake.
My list is not massive, but its ways to really help myself.
Hey Ladies! I promised I would keep you updated on my progress...
Its been nearly a month since my list began, I can successfully check multiple things off my list :) And I have honestly felt better!!! I am doing my best to not get discouraged for not being COMPLETLY successful, so far its working...
As of tonight, all of my previous journals have been burned.. I'm that person that writes allll the time, if i have the mental energy. Ive held on to these journals for many many many years. I felt no sadness burning them. I actually would smile sooo big watching them burn. Its felt so great to "let go" of all of those memories. Some good, some bad, but none I want to re-live. I had one spacifc journal that i devoured myself into when my sons dad and I were having our issues that lead up to our split. He knows about the journy that I am taking and asked if he could be there when that journal was burned. I agreed since we are working the best we can for our son. He never thought that it was sooo much written. He broke down and cried. I still smiled knowing I was letting it all go (I have let it go tattooed on my wrist)
My soda intake is up and down. some days I do great and barely have 2 cans. ( I was drinking about 6 a day) and others I dont do as well. But its better then nothing right??
This also goes for my smoking. Some days I barely have any and others is the same. still keeping myself upbeat that I'm making progress.
i have found silver linings in all my problems, and I have tried to mention 3 good things about my day, daily. not as good as i wouldve hoped, but I'm happy where ive gotten!!
So Im about to start my new list and modifying the things that I wasnt as successful with. My fish oil is another check!! meditating nightly is something for me thats too much to try and do, but I can still try to do it weekly.. Umm thats all for now!!! Thank you so much ladies for your poisitive feedback so far! Im so greatful!