I know I'm probably going to get some greif for this post, but oh well...I just want honest opinions.
I'm 21 going on 22, my husband is 32. We have two children together ages 2 and 3, and a he has a son from a previous relationship who is 10. We have dss everyother weekend and most of the summer. I am a sahm right now, for a few reasons...One being we can't afford daycare, and even if I did get a job it would be pointless since we live out in the boonies my whole check would be GONE after gass, and daycare. Another being we live on a farm with LOTS of livestock that *I* care for as well as my children. My husband farms so most of the year he isn't around...or he is sleeping. I'm SO fed up with his job I'm really considering leaving!
We live with DH's parents, my father in law has prostate cancer and he wants us here. Not only that but DH makes $380 a week...and he isn't even paying child support yet!!! O.o Once that is set he'll be bringing home even less! There is NO way we could afford to move out. We DID move to Colorado last year, but we were asked to come back home because my FIL was missing the kids and didn't want to miss out on them in fear he didn't have much time left...BUT now he is really nasty with me, and is talking about me to people and it's getting back to me. It really hurts my feelings! We used to be pretty close! My MIL and I are still very close and we vent to each other. I love her like a mom and I love him like a dad, but can't take the hostile enviroment any longer! I think hubby needs to get a diffrent job that pays more, FIL says no.
See here is another problem my husband likes to sleep...a lot! He will come home from work sit down eat dinner and fall asleep in his recliner, then either get up and go to work or sleep until he damn well pleases. Mean while I have animals to feed, children to wake up and get ready for the day, stalls to clean, horses to work and groom, lunch, potty training, then we have a "school hour" (the kids will be going to school, I just want to give them a head start) then we do a clean up of the house, not to mention I do laundrey ALL day long, then dishes, then feed again, then dinner, bath and bed....then do it all again the next day. I go NO where, I do NOTHING. I do not have a car. We live out in the middle of NO WHERE so walking some where isn't an option. It's just me and the kids all day. He helps with NOTHING! I'm SO fed up with getting NO help around here and being expected to do everything! I mentioned doing on line classes, and my FIL gave me a look...and let me tell you if looks could kill I wouldn't be typing this right now!Lol. Any ways he said I would rather you worked or did something besides sit in my house all day... O.O WHAT!!!!!!
So I told my mother in law yestorday I'm considering leaving...selling my horse and getting the hell outta here. She said she understands, and that I'm right and she is sorry things are the way they are. Well so am I. :(
If you all made it through this Kudos to you!!! ;) I'm looking for opinions on how to maybe manage my time better so I can get more done, so my father in law isn't upset with me all the time, or how to talk to my DH to get him to understand what I'm feeling, or what you think of my situation all together. Thanks everyone! :)