Life keeps tossing out these events that would be bad enough on their own... alllll together. In rapid fire succession.
Death of a best friend...another absurdly personally close friend's 2am confession of a saddening secret that can only serve to cause more pain before it improves... STBX deciding he wants to be up my ass again trying to work it all out...no job despite interviews and resumes and endless searches... two older children blatantly displaying signs of upset at this impending divorce... and this creeping heavy but spotty wave of blue... drowning and crushing... my hero is dead, my life is unraveling, my golden god is tarnished and falling from his temple and here sit.... facing life in all of it's huge vastness. I'm only 5'0". I am infinitely small compared to what tasks and futures lie ahead.
It's all just
So
Big....
Take a deep breath, scream out your pain and anger and lift your chin high. You're doing fine =) You are a strong woman and never think otherwise!
im in the same boat. all of it blows. im at one of those i give up on trying so dont bother knocking. whatever comes to me right now has to fall down a huge crack because i simply cannot deal. i have reached my limit long ago, i kept pushing myself and it caused not so great things to happen to me. i hit that point where im just not doing it anymore, i fought to hard to long and im tired.
I hate it when people used to tell me this... but I have also found it to be true! Every obstacle that you can get past makes you SO much stronger! Your babies will grow up and remember the struggles, and how you held up through it, and they will KNOW that they can do anything and everything, just like their Mommy!
It's FRIDAY!
- StarryRain
on May. 29, 2012 at 3:46 PM