I'll try to sum this up as quickly as possible:
- My husband and I have a 2 year old son
- We both want a big family in the future
- We want our son to have a sibling close in age
- We have a stable home with good work
Ok, so in the middle of October, as we got close to our son's 2nd birthday, my husband and I started talking about me getting off the pill and taking the "we'll see what happens" approach to TTC... like, we weren't trying, but we weren't trying NOT to have a baby. I've been off the pill since the end of October and we've been trying/ not trying since then.
So. Today we went to my doctor and I was telling her about how we were TTC and he looked uneasy. After the appointment, I asked him what was wrong. He said he was having second thoughts about trying; how working 10 hour days (from 3:30pm-2am) made him realize that it was going to be hard with a newborn to get the sleep he needs. So he basically told me that he doesn't want another baby right now... juuuust before my ovulation/ high fertility week.
I'm having mixed feelings about this: I'm glad he told me NOW before I actually got pregnant and then had him decide that he didn't want another baby and then resented me for it. But I was also getting excited for another baby! I was all excited for my son to have a sibling and grow up with a brother or sister. We even came up with names together! I feel kinda dumb; I've been telling doctors, relatives, and friends that we're trying. And now we're not....
Does anyone have any ideas on how to deal wit this situation? Any feedback here? I'm just really confused and I don't know how I should feel here.