Ive cried so much in the.past two days its insane. I think just not thinking about it will help and I can pull down my emotions. :'( no matter what its just beyond a heartbreaking tradgedy.
Yes it is a sad thing and I am still shaking and trying not to read anything else but do I saw the pictures of some of the children yesterday online so cute Emile Parker she had those big pretty blue eyes now my daughter is 19 last year of school and everybody falls in love with Brittanys face which if I get mad at her takes all I can not to just melt and forget.
I could not imagine losing her for nothing only child I have and my heart goes out to each and every parent but those that only had one child Lord help us all then I did cry later yesterday afternoon my cousin is in the hospital on life support she has cancer my oldest niece went to the hospital after work yesterday afternoon she took a turn for the worse said she had coded 3 times yesterday I said lord Lord here right at Xmas 2 of the boys funnerals are today so sad I kissed my daughter this morning which I always have did all her school years and kissed my 12 year old nephew where are you safe.
I had a hard time dropping my daughter (she's 5) off at school today. Even though she is only gone for 2 1/2 hours, its killing me. I just want her home where I know she is 100% safe, where I can see her, talk to her, hold her. I cant imagine what those families are going through and just thinking that it could happen anywhere, that I could send my child off to school and it could be the last time I ever see her, hug her, tell her that I love her, is unimaginable and heartbreaking. I try not read or watch anything about the shooting in front of her because it makes me cry and I dont want to explain to her why because it will scare her. My heart goes out to those families that lost their babies on Friday and I hope that one day they can find some peace.



- CheyennesMommy2
on Dec. 16, 2012 at 12:59 AM