**Best Friend** ^^^Dilemma^^....!!! Seek advice??!!
I'm having an issue with my "BFF". We have been friends since 4th grade. We kinda drifted apart in HS. We found each other about 3 years ago, we were becoming close. Our relationship grew close and I asked her to be the god-mother for my 2 y/o. She said yes, but haven't made it official yet. So moving along, we talked here and there (since our lives are completely different right now). About a month ago I went to my hometown to visit my family and my SO sister. I texted her a couple of days before to tell her I was going to be in town. She said Ok. Well, when we were at my SO sister house and it turned out that she was having a party. Later that day my "BFF" called me to let me know she was off work and I lied that my son was vomiting and we had to leave. (my son did get sick but we didn't leave right away). That was the last I ever heard from her. I just didn't feel right leaving my SO sister house when we were invited to go over. I guess that's how I was raised. I also didn't feel right having my "BFF" go over since it wasn't my house. (again, also how I was raised, to respect the other person's home). So about 2 weeks after, I went back to my hometown to visit my grandparents and I texted her days in advanced that I was going back, a day later she texted me and put "Sorry, I'm real busy...working a lot...maybe another time"... So I dropped it. Then, another week later I went back again to visit my grandparents and I texted her that I'll be in town and a few days later she texted and said, she'll be working all day... I kinda took the hint. I never heard from her again. Well I some how feel it was my fault because I lied in the first place. But then again...she would of never known if I was telling the truth or not. Maybe I'm feeling guilty because I lied to her. My mind is playing tricks on me. I think it's rude that I reached out twice after that. I live two hours away from her and my family, I never go often. I don't know what to do or think. I'm devastated. We've been friends for so long. I'm really heart broken. I didn't think I deserved to get blown off twice. I feel bad that my son wasn't important to see. She is a very sensitive and emotional person. Tends to take things to heart. It bugs but that is who she is... What do you think? Should I try to reach out and talk to her or just let it go? I've been holding this in for a while since I have no one to turn too =( I think about this situation all the time. I miss her and I miss the way we used to be. I hope someone out there can relate to me or this situation. Sometimes I even think of writing her a letter and expressing how I feel. Should I? Please and advice or feedback. Thank you *-*