this is the hardest decision I've ever had to make (long piog)
For a long time we talked about going back to Arizona and we actually tried but the people we talked to about the apartments we were going to move in to lied to us about their pet policies and rent prices so that fell through, which was good cuz I ended up getting pregnant a month later.
Well 4 months after that the land lords we were renting from didnt bother telling us they were losing the house until we had 30 days to get out. So we tried to find a place and we couldn't. We eventually had to get rid of our dogs and move with my parents. So we've been splitting rent and utilities and its actually working out really well.
Well now my inlaws are moving to AZ to a big house and they've offered to let us go with them. We would have our own rooms and our own bathroom and a yard for ds, which we don't have now. Dh would transfer his job, renew his security licenses and there are plenty of job opportunities there, at least compared to here. I could finally stay home with ds and we would try for another soon and we would soon be able to get our own place down there since living is cheaper.
Its what we've wanted for a long time, I think itd be good for us in so many ways, the only thing holding me back is my parents are so attached to ds. My dad says how he can't wait to come home from work every day to see him, my mom was diagnosed with a terminal lung disease a year ago and she always talks about how she just knows things worked out this way because she needed our ds here to keep her happy and keep her going.. how do I take him away from them? How do I take away the thing making them the happiest? My dad has never been so close to anyone, ever since ds was born they had this connection, as a newborn he would just stare at him and now he's almost one and he's his favorite person and they both get so excited when they see each other.. I've been crying literally all day because I feel like its what would be best for our family but how do I do that? I feel so guilty just thinking about taking him away from them. I guess I just need to put my big girl panties on and do it, but its killing me! Thanks for reading, I just need to let it out.