Please i need legit advise here!!!!! Im so scared that i will lose everything and me and the kids will be stuck out in the cold!!!!
**i called my mom yesterday and she said exactly what i thought she would 'i told you he would do the to you. You guys were never ment to be you should have left him while he was overseas and you shoukd have..' i cut her off there because she was going to tell me i shoukd have never got pregnant. She resented my oldest for the longest time....i still dont think shes fully accepted my kids. I hate her for this! So i basically asked if she could help me out for a while with a place to stay. She lives...well lived on a farm with enough rooms for me and the kids....well since my dads passing she lost the farm so now shes in a 2 bedroom apartment and her boyfriend and his youngest son are living with her off and on. So the kids stuff is in the second bedroom. So instead of being there for her fucking family shes housing her boyfriend and his kid. Yea fuck you!!!! so last night after dh got home was super weird and very uncomfortable. He came home like always and expected a kiss. Ya right buddy! No kiss for you. I went about the night he talked to his cousin about his motor, i made dinner fed the baby put the kids to bed and sat on the opposite side of the couch playing ith the baby. I hardly spoke 2 words to him. I wanted so badly to confront him about it all and ask wtf his deal is but i just couldnt do it infront of the kids. They havent ever seen us fight and im not about to do it now. My in laws are coming for dinner tonight and taking the older 2 over night so i think i will talk to him tonight after they leave. I will try to update tonight but it will probably be tomorrow morning.
Still looking for options on a way out or if i should really try to make this work. 8 years, 6 years of marriage, 1 deployment and 3 kids. We have been through a lot and idk i just dont want to lose what we have....well had but idk if i could ever trust him again. Oh and im not speaking to my friend ever again that was the shadyest thing she could ever do to me and there is no going back from there!