I just need to vent and get some stuff out. I guess I let myself get down about things that I should just not care about. I want to say I am a 24 year old single mother to a wonderful 3 year old boy. If I had not met my boyfriend of nearly 8 months, I would be lost.
Let me explain. I never had to be an adult ever. I'm not trying to fault my parents. But I realize how much they hindered me. I have never paid bills until almost a year ago. I know nothing about car insurance or making gas money last. I struggle all the time with money because I have no concept of it. I started my first real full time job almost 2 years ago. I feel so lost. There is so much adult things I just do not understand.
Thankfully, I met my boyfriend around the time my parents decided it was time for me to be an adult. Without my boyfriend, I would of sank. He helps daily to remember my budget, to pay bills, to not waste money. He helps me grocery shop the right way. The way that doesn't waste money. There are so many things he knows that I have no clue about.
I get that my parents were trying to help. But it didn't. I am under so much stress right now because I am trying to understand and make things all work out. I have come such a long way in the last year. I dumped my parents cell phone plan and pay my own. I have my own car insurance and pay it monthly. I work my butt off at work and try not to cut hours. I budget all my money and know where it should go.
It's just hard. I am doing all this virtually alone aside from my boyfriend. At the time my parents decided I could enter adulthood was also the time they stopped helping. I hide my mail and am considering a P.O box to ensure I get my mail when it comes. I hardly tell them anything about my life. I no longer look to them for advice when I'm struggling. I just wish this was all easier.