I just need some encouraging words to get me by! So here it goes
Aside from my kids being mischievous, manipulating and sometimes down right 'yucky' little critters, my boyfriend is a jerk. He helps around the house when he gets home from work, but clocks out whenever he feels like it, he will do the dishes and leave a puddle of water on the floor, or will make food/coffee and spillage is everywhere, I just don't get how it happens in a way that was so stealthy he didn't notice the huge splatter of *name substance here* all over the *name surface here*.
Tonight he decided he was going to go out, just like last weekend and many many many weekends before that. I was told I am not invited (guys night pffft) I'm never invited. I have gone out a handful of times since my oldest was born and I haven't had friends since I've had my kids, I haven't been lucky enough to find anyone in my city that is around my age and happens to be a decent person with good parenting abilities. I'm so lonely. I spend day in day out talking to a 2 yr old.
Sometimes I want to clock out. I want to go out with... Someone, anyone really. My spouse never takes me anywhere, barely talks to me, we NEVER have "cuddle" time unless I'm the one initiating it. I feel caged and unappreciated already, and then he goes and makes me feel ugly, unwanted, unloved, like I'm that horrible to spend time with. I don't know if this is something many parents go through, or if he just doesn't want to be with me anymore. Is he cheating? Is he depressed? Does he have some sort of social drinking addiction? Or is it just me?