Unwanted Cruise and gotta leave my kids behind!
I never thought I would say this ladies but... I am going on a cruise vacation for 5 days and I do NOT want to go. As much as I need this I just can not cope with the thought of leaving my children (3 1/2 and 7 months) behind that long. Originally, we planned this over a year ago. When we were making this trip to get away I only had my son and my daughter was not even a possiblity yet. Unfortunately our plans got put on hold because I found out I was pregnant and my fiance got a new job with the post office so the cruise line extended it for us but would not refund our money. So 7 months after she is born I am now forced to go on this cruise because 1) my fiance has never been on one and would be devistated if I did not go 2) 800 dollars out the window, which does not bother me, but again my fiance would be devistated 3) We really actually kind of need this time together, I just wish it was not so long or far away.
SO, with that being said I am also Autistic so I have to plan everything waaaaaay ahead of time thats me, my trip, my daughter and what she needs and my son and what he needs and not to mention all the moving and MRI's and my sons Autism Evaluation results going on the week we get back! I have TOO MUCH ON MY PLATE and I am losing my cool and my ability to keep from being upset or overwhelmed.
I want to know, would it be WRONG for me to beg my "mother in law" to stay over MY house so the kids are comfortable and I am comfortable and able to enjoy my vacation? She wont stay the night and I am not fond of her house because the pool and she sews so their are always little things laying around (though she trys really hard to keep things tidy when the kids are over) I just feel scared and I can control whats at my house and whats safe for them, i can not do that at her house and it terrifies me and I KNOW it will make my vacation almost pointless and miserable for my fiance. I keep having panic attacks just by thinking of how much I have to prepare and bring 5 days worth of stuff to her house and its just overwhelming. I was going to offer to fill the fridge and cabinets with foods of her choice and to leave money for anything she wanted to do with the kids, I was going to make up the futone and keep the house completely clean and clear for her and the childrens saftey.
Is it wrong for me to NEED this from her?