Anyway cause I was on public assistance they told me either I had to go to school or work cause I dropped out I worked which is what I had been doing these last 3 years. The plan was to go back in and it seems I kept pushing it away.
Now that I'm going back it's sinking in everything I'm gonna have to do. My hours have to be cut, my oldest daughter will also be starting school and I feel I'll barely get to see her cause I'll be working or in school. When I went to my college they basically told me it was going to be hard which I get but they said I'm at a disadvantage cause I haven't been in school for a while and now everything is harder to learn and I'm already a slow learner and I'm gonna need help but with work and my kids they didn't think that's possible. I just felt more insecure about going back that I almost don't wanna go back.
I don't know if it sounds childish or just petty but I'm just really lost now...I already dropped out once failing my first semester I don't wanna repeat that again.