mixed emotions... and i feel bad about it.
today my mother in law and father in law went to a dr appointment. either on the way there or maybe on their way back its unclear at this time, they had a blowout and hit 2 cars and a semi truck. they are fine thankfully. i am happy about that and im not worrying about them since i got the ok that they were fine
we went to a concert on saturday, first time ive really been away from my kids since my son was born almost 3 years ago. they went to my nephews birthday.. thing, it was just cake and ice cream. well on the way home my father in law drove (they were watching the kids) he wont be able to handle my daughter crying so my mother in law held her in the front all the way home! (yes i was mad at this... although i didnt say anything, i know she knows i disapprove) she is 7 months old.
now all i keep thinking s what if this happened on saturday with my babies in the car (because i have a feeling my son probably wasnt buckled in either..although i cant be 100% positive on this) this wasnt just a they hit a car thing, they had a blowout this could have happened at anytime!
now i have to replace 2 carseats and im thinking about that, and i am thinking of the things i have in their car (we live with them so some things are in there, son and daughters toys, some papers of mine, misc things.)
i know they are fine so im not as worried for them at the moment tomorrow they will probably feel it.. but... i feel so badfor having all these things on my mind instead of just them and their wellbeing.. s/o is on his way to see them right now.. gah am i such a horrible person???!!!