Ok where to start? I am 26 have 2 kids a son who is 3 and a daughter who is not even a month old. I have a boyfriend that I've been with for 6 1/2 years. I don't know if this is PPD or just plain depression. I have an appointment with my Dr. the 23rd. I am going to try my very best to talk to her then. I have been feeling like this since the day I found out I was pregnant. It seems to be getting worse. when my son was born i couldn't leave his side I was in love with him the second I seen his face. With DD I can't even look at her. I don't feel that instant love with her. When she cries I just sigh and dread dealing with her. SO was suppose to give me a break last night but got busy doing everything else around the house and didn't. I feel bad all I had to do was sit with DD and it was to much for me and she slept most of the time. I know I shouldn't feel this way I don't want to feel this way. I want to want to hold my baby and sing to her and just love her. I hate feeling this way. I can't help but think a lot of this has to do with me not humm well wanting her to begin with. She is here and I will love her I take care of her I would never not take care of her. My mom and step-dad live next door so if I ever had to have someone take care of her I could call them. I'm just at a loss. I need some help!!