Going through this again.....

Hello everyone.  It has been awhile since I have been active here.  However, my life has been turned upside down again and I really need some support from those who understand what I'm going through.

 I've been going through a lot the past couple of weeks.  My almost  5 year old daughter disclosed to me that my best friend's husband has been sexually abusing her.  She reported to me in the past twice that two other men had messed with her, but now I wonder if it has been the same man all along.  The stuff my daughter has been telling me and acting out has been so disturbing.

I made a police report.  Children's services have visited us.  We had her examined at the special care center that the children's hospital has for kids that have been abused.  There was no physical evidence (but we don't know how long ago this happened) and she would not disclose to the social worker there what happened, so legally they won't do anything at this point.  She has an appointment tonight with a special counselor that is going to do a sexual abuse evaluation.

I am sickened that this man is going to probably get away with this.  Kelsi (my daughter) has nightmares and flashbacks and even panic attacks.  We were at church on Sunday and a she had a panic attack and I had to chase her through the church for a half hour before I could get her to calm down.

This is a nightmare.  I am trying to only focus on what she is going through, but it is hard to not be reminded of my own abuse and trauma.  And my best friend is still with the man and doesn't  believe us.  She has been my best friend for 17 years and like a sister.  She even found out that her husband had molested his own daughter when she was young (once I found this out I stopped letting Kelsi go over there), and my best friend is still sticking by his side.  I don't understand it.

Thanks for letting me tell my story.

Kelli