Xander Lee Pierce was born stillborn December 20th

[sweetnarwa]

Xander Lee Pierce was born stillborn at 2:10am December 20th, 20inch long 6lbs 4oz, it was a cord accident, the cord was wrapped around the neck. We believe god wanted him sooner and that he is in heaven playing with family and other babys. Its been really hard on me and my husband but we are trying to stay strong. I have been crying so hard its hurts so much.

I went into the doctor the 18th because i havent felt him move for an extremely long time. the doctor for me on the nst and no heart beat. So he did the doppler still couldnt find him. So they did the ultrasound machine they couldnt get him to move. 

At 5:16pm Dec 18 th they started me on the inducing meds the Vaginal one first then at i want to say 6pm Dec 18th i started having contractions about 2mins apart but no dilation it was the meds basically making the contractions happen. then on the 19th they put me on pitocin i cant remember i was hurting so  much from the contractions i couldnt think straight about 9pm the 19th they had me try to push but i was moving fast enough for the pushing but then around 1am it started and i started pushing and my body even did it on its own too. Around 1:50am his shoulders got stuck and the doctor had to try to start to pull because i started getting pale because the epidural was wearing off and i already been in labor for a long time and my eyes started rolling back but he still wouldnt come so they basically had to push my legs back all the way to my chest and have me push the nurses pushed on my stomach to try and get his shoulders to move and the doctor started pulling. i was a long process but we got him out and he still was the most beautiful baby i have ever seen even though we was purple and skin was coming off him but he was beautiful he had the dark hair like i did when i was born and he have my husbands nose and lips. The cord was very short and was wrapped around him neck once but extremly tight the doctor had a hard time getting it off.

At 4:30am a photographer from "Now i lay me down to sleep" A non profit organization that photos still borns for familys that cant afford to do it. came by and offered to take photos of me and my husband and mother in law with the baby. also they took other photos of him too ill look at them when im ready to right now im not sure i can do it. They let me hold him full wrapped with only his face showing because his rest of his body was pretty much decaying. he looked like he was sleeping he was and still is so beautiful. 

I got a funeral home and we are going to cremate so we can always have him close to us in our home. the hospital gave us a keepsake box with the outfit they had him in and some of his hair and his foot prints with also a card signed by my nurses and my doctor. Ty you so much for listening

Sorry if any of this is TMI i just wanted to let you all know what happened.

ill post pics when i have some 

  

Married                           Xander Lee Pierce

10/25/2008                   12/20/09 got his wings

[nei-nei]

I am so sorry for your loss! Words can't express the sorrow. One of my friends recently had pics done by them and they turned out beautiful. I am so glad they are around now. When we lost our twins, if they were around, we didn't know about them.  I only have a couple of pics that the hospital took. I couldn't bear to do any of my own. We were only 17 weeks into our pregnancy though. They were so small, but so perfect still. I keep their gravesite decorated for every season/holiday. It has been over 3 years. It's good that you will have him that close to you.  Please IM me if you ever need to talk. We lost 5 babies before having a healthy baby girl, the loss is so great.

In my prayers,

Denise

[AnneWilliams]

I don't know what to say, other than I am so sorry. I can't even imagine the pain you are feeling. I will pray for you, your family, and your beautiful baby angel.

[Optimistic101]

The tears are streaming down my face right now. I am so sorry for your loss. You are right, God must have wanted him sooner.  My prayers go out to you and your family.

Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless CHRISTMAS TREES around the world below
with tiny lights like HEAVEN’S STARS reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so SPECTACULAR please wipe away that tear
for I am spending CHRISTMAS WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I hear the many CHRISTMAS SONGS that people hold so dear
but the SOUND OF MUSIC can't compare with the CHRISTMAS CHOIR up here.

I have no words to tell you of the JOY their voices bring
for it is beyond description to HEAR THE ANGELS SING.

I know HOW MUCH YOU MISS ME, I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending CHRISTMAS WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I can't tell you of the SPLENDOR or the PEACE here in this place
Can you just imagine CHRISTMAS WITH OUR SAVIOR face to face

I'll ask him to LIFT YOUR SPIRIT as I tell him of your love
so then PRAY FOR ONE ANOTHER as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your HEARTS BE JOYFUL and let your SPIRIT SING
for I am spending CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN and I’m walking WITH THE KING.

[AznQueensGrl]

I am so sorry for your loss!!!    May he rest in peace and know that you all loved him dearly.

[Tonya_Colt]

I am so sorry you are going through this, I know there is nothing I can say to help you ease your pain. I just wanted to say that I am sorry for your loss.

[intuitivemagic]

So sorry for the heartache you are experiencing. Tears of sorrow for you and your husband. I will keep you, your husband and family in my thoughts and prayers. Xander was loved, and felt your love throughout his time on this world. I lost a son at about 24 weeks, and I am grateful for the memories of holding him, and looking at his beautiful face. I am glad that you will have a picture of your son.

 

 

 

[Mrs04Mom0608]

OH Sweetie I know words do not produce the heart felt sorrow I have for you and your family at this tragedy. Xander is a precious angel that God chose to take sooner than anyone would have wanted. I'm sorry for your lose and offer my condolensces from one mommy to another!