Hi

[nickernocker]

I did a weigh down plan that was kindof what you are talking about. You eat when you are hungry and stop when you are full but not overly full. Aslong as I followed the concept I did real well. Lost 40 lb I felt good and for the first time I was not obsessed by food. I got off track and I dont Know why now I have gained back the weight. I keep looking at other diets but my heart is not in it at all. I have even thought of surgery

[segrau]

I really like how the workbook "Don't Diet, Live-It," deals with this problem.  They fully address that this is a process and that dealing with these emotions and issues that led to the weigh gain in the first place are often not completely "cured" the first time around.  We often need to revisit them and look inward to make sure that we are not eating emotionally (or if we are, that we are realizing it and deciding consciously to go ahead and eat rather than deal with the issue at the moment.)  In fact, the workbook is designed to make you deal with each of the issues that make up the overeating self-hatred complex through a series of journeys.  Each Journey has 4 parts dealing with the same issue.  So, you deal with all your problems once, and then start the book again for a review and go through them up to 3 more times!  I'm not necessarily advocating this particular book (although it is wonderful!)  All I'm saying is that you've healed yourself once and maybe some of these issues and habits were too deeply ingrained to be helped on the first try.  It's perfectly normal to need some time to revisit them and deal with them again.  In fact, it would be a little wierd if you could just do it once and be cured forever!  It would be a little like a rape victim going to see a psychologist once and having all issues regarding her tragedy dealt with in a single session. 

Don't beat yourself up.  That's why we're all here.  We know this is a process and that we need to be dealt with gently because things have been so difficult in the past.  Consider meditation and personal reflection (if you can get some time to yourself in a quiet room!)  I try to meditate every night for at least 10 minutes on loving myself and my body as is, and focusing on the positives and my progress, slow as it sometimes is.  :)