I'm done

[FallenKitty]

FIne, lock my post, whatever
it doesn't matter anymore, I lost my place to live now because I left my fiance
I have nowhere to go but live outside, and it's winter like hell here
I really don't care anymore, the state can't help me cuz I can't show up at the county building 35 hours a week

I'm giving up on everything, I'm not even going to bother
if I freeze to death and die, oh well
if I manage to survive somehow, who cares?

I'll never make it anywhere, I don't have anywhere to go
I don't even have a will to try anymore

so thanks for making things that much more fucking hopeless

[Joanne28]

Open the phone book or get on the net and start looking up charities, community organizations, churches. You CAN do this!  Just keep calling and calling and calling! It can be frustrating but for every 30 people you call for help, 3 of those will actully be able to help you. Dont give up.

[FallenKitty]

It doesn't matter anymore
I won't have anything after today, no phone, no place to stay, nothing
I'll be sleeping out in the cold once my roommates come home from work and tell me to get out
they gave me all of last night to pack my shit
they said I have to be out today
and that means I lose the internet and a phone
so how am I going to call anyone? I CAN'T
and no, I don't have a single penyy for a damn pay phone
I HAVE NOTHING
I'll be getting kicked out with no food, no drink, NOTHING

there's no point in trying anymore
I've tried getting help from the county and they do nothing but tell me I have to be there 35 hours a week and look for a job
or they won't help me at all
I don't have a fucking car or money to take the stupid bus [which I wouldn't take anyway, I don't trust those people]
my life is fucking over and there's no getting up this time
and it's all because of this baby
I'd be perfectly fine if I wasn't pregnant
I'd have all kinds of offers of places to live, but no one wants a fat and ugly pregnant woman
no one wants to deal with a kid that isn't theirs
so I'm out in the cold now, and I hope I freeze to death

[wantinababy1]

SORRY NOT TRYING TO BE MEAN......BUT

QUIT BITCHING AND GET UP OFF YOUR ASS AND GET A JOB. AND THERE IS WOMAN SHELTERS IN EVEY TOWN AND CITY..STAY THERE TILL YOU GET ENOUGH MONEY TO GET A PLACE..I WAS IN YOUR SHOES A WHILE BACK. DONT EVER LET A MAN TELL YOU THAT YOU DONT NEED A JOB. ALWAYS BE PREPARED TO BE STUCK IN THIS SPOT. WHERE IS YOUR FAMILY? STAY WITH SOMEONE TILL YOU GET MONEY FOR A PLACE.THINK OF YOURSELF BEFORE ANYONE ELSE..KIDS TOO YOU HAVE TO MAINTAIN YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CAN HELP THEM..

[FallenKitty]

Look I can't work
I have fucking social anxiety and I lose it out in public by myself
unless it's good for the baby to have a panic attack that could lead to a seizure
and I can't work most jobs that are avaiable anyway
I never finished high school, I don't plan on ever going back either
I'm covered in tattoos which is horribly frowned upon where I live
I have NO job experience and the only things I'm good at I can't do while pregnant
because I can't lift ANYTHING or stand for more than 5 minutes without fainting
so please, tell me where I could work, because there isn't fucking anywhere around here
I've looked
and I live 800 miles from all my friends and family
and the only person anywhere near me is my mom, and I can't go live with her or she could lose her place to live
[having anyone stay that's not on the lease is violation she could get kicked out on, and I have a special needs sister that CAN'T live in a shelter]

and I can't go stay in a shelter myself because I have too much stuff that I don't trust leaving behind
because I know these assholes will either break it or steal it and say it wasn't mine to take
I'm not risking losing the things I worked hard to get when I'll never be able to replace them

so again I HAVE NOTHING

[trist22]

What exactly are you looking for? I think YOU are your own worst enemy.. People are giving you suggestions and you are so NEGATIVE (without even trying) you are shooting them down. Honestly, I fear for your unborn Child. You obviously have problems deeper than "financial". Please do not blame your unborn Child for causing you to be in the situation you are in. What kind of roommates do you have that would just kick you out in the cold? If you have been living there and have stuff there, I wouldn't go.. let them call the Sheriff. They can't kick you out Tonight.( know this first hand because I had a relative staying with me, called the cops and they didn't care if he was paying rent or not because he had stuff there). Maybe if the Sheriff did come you could explain your situation and they could personally drive you to a Woman's Shelter or Hospital. No offense but what kind of room-mate were YOU if they are so urgent to kick you out?!  You have NO friends?? No one that can help? I am a Mom and I would put my kid up/help my kid out etc.. before I would say "no" because I was worried about my Lease. Isn't there anyone from where you are originally from that can help you get back to your hometown? I understand the lack of family support. I didn't have a Mother or Father to raise me, I have no family either.. but I have a hell of a lot of Friends that are like Family that always are there to help ( if I needed it). Am I lucky? Maybe so.. Maybe it's because of the type of Friend I am back to them ( and that I always help myself first).  I hope you get the help you need. Quit blaming others ( especially) that unborn Baby.  Instead of being on CM responding with "snarky" Answers to EVERYONE, get the yellow pages out and start calling Shelters/churches ( I don't care what your beliefs are, it isn't about YOU anymore when you have a child).

 

[FallenKitty]

Look, I'm 800 fucking miles from anyone I fucking know
I took off from all my friends and family over a year ago

I don't have a rental agreement with these roommates, and they were never my friends in the first place
I got tired of cleaning up after their nasty asses because of how disgusting this place constantly is
so I started complaining that they need to clean up after themselves or I'm gonna call the cops
and I have several times now, and they still don't clean
they had the threat of this place being condemned it was so bad at one point
[dishes in the sink growing BLACK mold, 4 large bags of garbage sitting open, cat shit everywhere, cat boxes overflowing...etc]

and I don't have the money OR A PHONE to go anywhere else
nod none of my friends have a car that can mae it an 800 miles trip without breaking down, or afford the $200 in gas
most of them work everyday or go to college, and it;s a minimum of 16 hours from here to there one way, and we just got about 6 inches of snow which would make driving FAR worse

so seriously, there is nothing I can do about MY life, and I'm not giving up a kid I had to suffer for
no one deserves to raise my flesh and blood that I bled for, that I went homeless twice for, that I continue to go hungry for
you don't know my damn situation and all I've already given up

and so what if I'm negative? If you had lived the life I did, you wouldn't be able to see anything positive out of life either
I have yet for one good thing to happen to me, and don't even say "well you have that baby"
I NEVER WANTED A KID, EVER
so no, it's not a fucking good thing, it ruined all my plans for my life all because a guy couldn't listen to NO

[jennjensen1980]

QUit having a tempertantrum and grow up.  You are possibly one of the most selfish people I have ever heard!

[christaberk]

All the ladies here have tried to be supportive, offering suggestions and offering prayers for you. You've done nothing but smart off back at them. If you're throwing a pity party, please revoke your invitation to the rest of us.

You keep going on and on about having nothing. And that there's nothing anyone can do about it, making excuse after excuse about everything. Do you expect us to collect money for you? Do you want one of us to offer to have you live with us?

Just accept our offers for prayer, and accept our advice. You don't have to follow it. Just be thankful that we care enough to even respond to this post.

Personally, I hope your situation improves. I will pray for you and your unborn baby, who has no fault in this situation.

[FallenKitty]

The child does have fault in this situation
I'd have a place to live and all I need if I wasn't pregnant
I'd have everything I could ever want if I wasn't pregnant
no one wants a damn child that isn't theirs, which is why I blame it
no one even wants me, as a friend or more, because of the child
so it is the fault of the child

and I don't accept "prayer" because I'm not a bible thumper
and don't appreciate people assuming that I believe in "god"
I find it offensive assuming I'm the same as you

[jennjensen1980]

Your really getting your kicks here aren't you?  If this is really true and you are as pathetic as you seem, you realize that you are having and keeping this child condemning it to a life of agony and pain just because something bad happened to you.. "a boy didn't listen to no".  Ask yourself, isn't there enough pain in this world?  Why inflict it on the innocent? 

 

And if this is just your idea of a good time because you have nothing better to do, then please go on, but know.. THIS WILL END, and you will be blocked.