Feel horrible I totally lost it on DH last night! (vent)
Oh my gosh I feel so terrible. I just lost it on DH last night. After 3+ years of ttc and a MC back in November I feel like its all catching up to me emotionally. I told DH that he needs to be more invested in ttc that I can't do it all on my own anymore. I'm the only one who even thinks or worries about it at all. And when I had the MC he acted as if it was no big deal. When I brought up my feelings with him last night he sort of laughed it off. Then I lost it! I told him I didn't think he even wanted to be a parent that having kids with me wasn't something he seemed to really want and that I might as well give up because I just don't know what he really wants anymore. He got upset back, told me that I should know by now what he wants and that giving up was never an option. Whats worse is I'm pretty sure I either O'd yesterday or possibly will be Oing today and we haven't bd'd since sunday. So really I don't think we have much of a chance this cycle, and blowing up on him didn't help anything I think I just made him feel as if he's a horrible husband who does nothing to make me feel good or help out in this partnership. Ugh I just wish I would have kept it in so I didn't make him out to be such a horrible person like I did.