If I can convince my husband. I found out about 2 months ago I was pregnant when my husband and I were having problems. Well we worked things out for the kids. Well last Monday I started a med for a uti and I started lightly spotting and thought it's nothing to worry about well by Wednesday I was still spotting so I called my dr and she said come in as soon as possible and we'll see what's going on. Well she checked me and said the blood looked to be coming from my cervix and when she did an ultrasound she almost started crying and said that she didn't see a heartbeat so she was going to send me to the hospital to the ultrasound tech and if there was no heartbeat to go home get my head together and be back at 9 the next morning. There was no heartbeat. When we got home I got my daughter and held her close and thanked the Lord I have her. Later that night my husband got into a car wreck because he felt that it was all his fault because I was stressed out after he got home I started bleeding a lot and having contractions around 1 am and they were every 5 minutes and lasted for about 45 seconds. 9 am finally came and I was at the dr office they took me straight to l & d where I had my first son at 12:15 pm. 1.9 oz. I named him and cried and cried. He died from moving a lot and getting the cord so twisted he couldn't get any nutrients or anything at all and there was a clot in the cord. My husband and I are very scared to try again. But I feel thats what I really truely want. I know it will never fill this hole in my heart but this is what I want.
on May. 29, 2012 at 9:41 PM