So, Saturday the 18th I thought was CD1....it wasn't, I just spotted a bit but it seemed like it was the start of AF. Anyhoo, it stopped later that evening....and so I thought maybe IB... I had No bleeding since Saturday, not sure what CD I was on or DPO because we had decided to go with the flow with ttc until my dr appt....
Anyhoo, Wednesday night, after nothing since Saturday I took a Pregnancy test and BFP. Plain as day, bright as everything hubby and I were so happy....but it was late at night and I wanted to take one more just in case....pretty much because I've never gotten a BFP and I've been trying for a very long time..
Pop forward to Thursday morning super light BFP.....I figure it was because I had gotten up to pee like a million times that night.
I went to test this morning and guess who decided to show her ugly face.....needless to say I'm so upset that I allowed myself to get so happy and then have it get torn away from me.
I went to the dr this morning and my Dr is out of town so I saw another dr who was the biggest douchebag. He asked me why I was there I told him Fertility, my dr told me to come in when AF started. He then walks out and goes to the nurses station, right outside the room and is yelling at the nurses "who is this patient, why am I seeing her, I've never seen her before, she isn't my patient why would she be scheduled with me?"
After the nurse told her you're covering for my dr he came back in and handed me off to the nurse. I seriously felt like I was being tossed around, I've NEVER felt this way in this office .
Needless to say I left there:
1. crying my eyes out
2. without a prescription for clomid(like my original dr said I'd get for this next cycle. But NO, he thinks "I need to lose more weight before having kids". I've lost 82lbs(currently weighing 247), yes I'm still bigger but give me a break I've been trying for 2 years 1 month and 20 days for goodness sake! I kept telling him MY dr said she was going to try it, he said "Well she doesn't know whats best for you"
3. Not knowing what to do next.
Top it off with a Co-worker being a complete a$$........so I ended up going home for lunch and crying my eyes out. Came back to work super puffy, with a head ache and not wanting to work anymore.
So anyhoo, it's been a long, crazy, ridiculous week and I can't wait for it to come to an end. I'm getting ready to write a formal complaint and I can't wait for my dr to get back into the office, although it will be too late to start Clomid.......Not 100% sure what I want to do, thinking maybe Soy or maybe nothing....
What do y'all think? Soy or nothing?
Sorry about this ramble/rant/vent that I just took y'all on....
**Upside, if I get pregnant this cycle my EDD would be May 31st** Fingers crossed
Lots of baby dust to all you wonderful ladies! :)