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Losing hope... and time...

Posted by on Jan. 14, 2013 at 10:39 AM
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Let me first start off by saying that I know we haven't been trying anywhere near as long as some of the ladies on here, so please don't take offense to this post! I don't mean to make anyones timettc seem any less important or meaningful, I just have to get this off my chest and this is the place I feel most comfortable doing so.

Ok, with all of that being said.... I just feel like it's not going to happen for us. We have been ttc for a little over 8 months now. I had the mirena for about 6 months before I had it taken out due to it making me crazy (that thing is seriously the DEVIL!!!) and we have been ttc ever since the removal. I got it removed in May of last year, had the normal few day removal "bleeding". It wasn't considered an actual period because it was all just old blood. I didn't have another period until September 28. That one was a normal one, lasted about the normal time and was the normal flow and all that jazz. I started OPK's after that one so that we could really start trying. Got my pos OPK some time around mid October, did a pregnancy test after the tww and it was negative. I started my next period on November 15. It lasted for 4 days and was light all 4 days. I startd temping that cycle and we used soft cups during my fertile window. I O'd on December 16 and according to FF my next AF was due December 31. It is now January 14, CD 61 and 29 DPO. I have still not started and really have no signs of AF coming. I have taken 3 HPT's and one blood test; the blood test was negative(my dr said it would be since it was still early for me), the first 2 HPT's I took were questionable(I made a post about them and put a pic of one of them) they looked exactly the same 3 days apart. I took another test, different brand on friday and that one was negative. I have been to my dr about all of this. Last time I saw her, on Jan. 4, we talked about putting me on Clomid but we obviously can't until AF comes, if she comes. I'm military so the processes and all that are different for me and it's harder for me than it would be if I wasn't. If I wasn't I would be able to just go to my dr and tell her what I wanted and more than likely I could get it. Being military complicates that a lot! I can't even talk about beeing referred off base to a specialist until I have been trying for a year, doesn't matter what conditions I may have. My dr isn't even aloud to test anything other than my hormone levels really. It sucks because of all the guidelines they have in place for us to follow. She did test all my levels back in September and they all came back perfectly normal.

I have a job that can cause some serious issues with fertility and we deal with a lot of chemicals that can make a woman permanently sterile, even knowing all of that my dr can't do anything more until we hit the year mark! Ugh!! 

And to add to all of this, we just found out DH is deploying in April!

This is just all wearing on me and I don't know how much more I can take! I don't think I can take another test and see a BFN so I have vowed not to test again until I am having more regular symptoms. Right now I am having some naseua at night time and the only thing that cures it is Ginger Ale, constant mood swings, tired all the time, and almost constant headaches.

Honestly, at this point I would be happy either way. I just want something to happen, AF or BFP it doesn't matter after this long. I mean 61 days, really?!!? Ugh!

So this is way longer than I expected it to be! Sorry for that! If anyone made it this far, thank you for listening(or reading lol). Any advice on how to keep on keepin on??

by on Jan. 14, 2013 at 10:39 AM
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mama2gg
by on Jan. 14, 2013 at 10:41 AM
Fx for you took ua 4 years sometimes things don't happen in our time
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milmomma2006
by on Jan. 14, 2013 at 10:47 AM

Thank you. I know it can and does take a long time. I think I'm just in one of those moods. I've been in this "rut" for a while lately. I just want something to happen either way. 61 days is a really long time to be on the cliff ya know?

Quoting mama2gg:

Fx for you took ua 4 years sometimes things don't happen in our time


mama2gg
by on Jan. 14, 2013 at 10:57 AM
Totally I think ttc is one of the hardest things in life to do..its hard on us as women, hard on our relationships and everything

Quoting milmomma2006:

Thank you. I know it can and does take a long time. I think I'm just in one of those moods. I've been in this "rut" for a while lately. I just want something to happen either way. 61 days is a really long time to be on the cliff ya know?


Quoting mama2gg:

Fx for you took ua 4 years sometimes things don't happen in our time


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milmomma2006
by on Jan. 14, 2013 at 11:04 AM

OMG I couldn't agree more!! Lol

Quoting mama2gg:

Totally I think ttc is one of the hardest things in life to do..its hard on us as women, hard on our relationships and everything

Quoting milmomma2006:

Thank you. I know it can and does take a long time. I think I'm just in one of those moods. I've been in this "rut" for a while lately. I just want something to happen either way. 61 days is a really long time to be on the cliff ya know?


Quoting mama2gg:

Fx for you took ua 4 years sometimes things don't happen in our time

 


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