So i was in the bedroom watching tv last night. DH was watching a show on Netflix in the livingroom. Its not a common thing, but I wasnt nuts bout the show hes watching.
I get a text...from a former close friend.
Little backstory:This friend sprung her "im pregnant" on me just before christmas. We used to be close, but when I got with DH...she felt she had to compete. She got a boyfriend, then engaged, then half moved in with him....and NOW she is pregnant. I got married last summer. We have been TTC since.
She KNOWS how hard it is for me to not be pregnant. Shes NOT suppose to be pregnant. Her Doctors were adament she shouldnt, because her diabetes is very UNcontrolled. She also has other health issues
So fine..shes pregnant. Ive shut myself off from her, because I just dont want to deal with it. I heard from a mutual friend, shes very high risk...and takes up to 7 shots a day. I do hope the baby makes it...and my friends health isnt compromised.
So I get this text last night. Mind you, AF just started yesterday. So I'm miserable, and weepy...tired and frustrated. She said "Just wanted to say hi, and let you know Im having a boy".
Girls, I lost it. I broke down bawling. DH sensed something wasnt right, and came into the bedroom. I told him...He crawled into bed, wrapped his arms around me and just held me. I have to say, I was so grateful for him. He said he loves me..no matter what. If we are not blessed with a child, it wont ever change. He says ive got so much more than my friend. She doesnt have a husband or anyone that loves her that much....thats why she felt the need to get pregnant(her and the babys father arent together, she dumped him after she got pregnant).
So this morning, im awake.....Still a little sad, but more just grateful to feel so loved by this man.