So I just wanted to share some thoughts roaming through my busy little head. Yesterday we closed on our first home. It was exciting. I took my parents through the tour and when we got to the "Guest Room" we had a surprise sign waiting for them...Pink or Blue a Baby's Due - Coming in March. My mom jumped up like a crazy women and my dad started tearing up. It was the best surprise ever since I had called my mom in tears last week thinking AF had come. Well then my mom went on to look at my dad and say should we tell them...WHAT? Your brother and sister in law are pregnant too and due in February. I know I should be happy, but I was a little sad. I wanted to give them their first grandchild. I wish I liked my sister in law better. We are not enemies. Just different. Then my parents were like this time you better not say anything til 12 weeks..Like everyone is waiting for me to miscarry again. I am nervous enough about that. I kinda feel like I was fooled. We saw my brother and Sister in law like 3 times in the past month...when the whole time the secret was on me. I guess I just got annoyed too because it was such a battle to get pregnant and it seems so easy for everyone else. I will never take pregnancy for granite. Maybe God knew I needed this now. My friends being pregnant is one thing, but I don't know if I could have dealt with this news as classy as I know I should have if AF really did come.
I am wishing you all babies really soon. I am not safe yet, and reminded of how sucky infertility is. BABY DUST TO ALL OF YOU WONDERFUL FUTURE MOMMIES!