does this make me a bad parent or in baby daddy's terms a "bit**"???
Ok so when i found out i was pregnant i told the BD but when i told him his thing got all mad because they had just got married after knowing eachother like 2 weeks...(i was 3months when i found out)...but anyways she flipped out and threatened to beat me up...and he continuesly denied the baby.....well then long story short they divorced because she was a whore and cheated...then he decided he wanted to be in the picture. so after alot of hard thinking and desicion making i gave him a chance since karman wasnt born yet.....well then he was in and out the whole time and then when i had her he showed up that night and claimed that he'd be back the next day but didnt come see her...because he hadnt got to hold her because my mom wouldnt let anyone but my nurse hold her to get washed up and everything until i was out of surgery from my csection....well ever since shes been born he'd come one day and then we wont hear from him for months and then he'll try to get her again and im iffy about it and he calls me a bit** ....but what he doesnt understand is that i dont want her to be hurt and i dont want her to be confused. my boyfriend josh has been the one here all along and has been the one raising her she is practically his daughter as well...he's been here since i was 4months along...and the BD wanted to kick his ass because he thought josh had something to do with my desicions....i got the dna proof but we havent went to court for anything else. well the most recent time BD came and got her he wouldnt bring her home at the time i said to. because HE made the stupid choice to be gone for two months or so...so he wanted a longer time...and he was going to try and keep her for a couple days and i dont even let her stay with my mom. so why the heck would i let her stay with him i dont know his address or how to get ahold of him because my mom has the numbers and she had to work. so he kept making up excuses, and everything, and after i had been transfered thru the sheriff and city police about 100 times to find out what to do...he found out i called them and decided to bring her home...but i didnt say anything to him i just grabbed karman and her things and shut the door in his face because honestly i wanted to beat the hell out of him. (im so insecure about him taking her because he used to always talk about going to tennesse or kansas, so thats why i freaked soo easily...WHO WOULDNT??) But i havent been able to talk to the prosecutor because i have no transportation during the day. and honestly i want him to have supervised visits or just have nothing to do with her because i dont want her hurt because he doesnt come around for like 2 or more months.....so WHAT SHOULD I DO??!!! i wanna be a good mommy. and i think i made a mistake telling him about her and letting him in. because now i have to fight about what i think is best for her....oh and everytime she comes home she smells funny like pot cigarretes and idk something else and he smokes cigs and his dad smokes pot. and i dont want her around that shit i told him not to smoke around her but guys are dumb and dont listen and he's the type who thinks he's always right. sooo yeah. what should i do please someone help me? he's only bought her diapers like twice ive been having to find things to sale to buy them for her and when josh had his job he was buying them almost every week so we'd be stocked up but shes a pee-pot and super shitter lol. so we go thru them fast.