Well, here when i found out i was pregnant, i was 11 hours away from my home, family, friends, and my ex. I had to call to let everyone know the news, and not everyone was happy, Including myself. I wasn't ready to be a mother and i feel the same way now. If it wouldn't be for my mother, i don't know what health my mentality would be in. I was planning to give my son up for adoption, and when i talked about it to my ex, he was all for it.
I ended up driving home to try and patch things up with my ex, and for a while it worked. Until he started cheating on me halfway through the pregnancy. I decided it was best to not be with him for the sake of my heart. When it came time to deliver, i called and called, and finally when i reached him, he refused to come to the hospital. I talked to him about signing the papers for the adoption and he refused. He said there is no way im going to sign a single thing.
So it's been a month and 11 days since then, and he refuses to come see colin, sign the papers, pretty much anything that might make my load a lil lighter. I feel as tho i have been trapped. I am not ready for this,and never thought i would be.. It burns and burns everytime im alone and have time to think.. and idk what to do.. I love my son, just not as much as i feel i should. Any advice ladies..? im at the end of my rope here..