My fiance just left to go out and have a couple drinks with one of his friends and I'm bawling my eyes out crying right now. Hes only going to be gone a few hours but I have severe anxiety and depression and I cant help it. I used to do this when he would leave for work too but I got over it. He hasnt gone out in months and I'm not used to not being around him unless hes at work. I cant calm myself down, I'm sitting here chain-smoking my cigarettes just to take the edge off. I dont want to have these anxiety attacks when he leaves, I feel pathetic, I dont know what to do with myself and I cant make it go away. I cant fall asleep at night without him, there hasnt been a night we havent gone to bed together in about two years. Our son is alseep already and I dont know what to do with myself. I just need to be occupied so I figured I'd vent my problems to all of you, thanks for reading, I appreciate it.
Update: so my fiance left at 9:45pm, he said he would only be out "a couple hours" it is now almost 2am.. I dont know wether to be worried or pissed.. I'm a bit of both right now.. :'(
on Apr. 29, 2012 at 10:08 PM