My name is Jessica and i am a 21 year old full time college student and full time worker. I got pregnant in November and everything seemed ok. We saw our babies heart beat went back two weeks later and She was gone. This was my first miscarriage due to a semi molar pregnancy that was misdiagnosed. I again conceived In February and my levels were watched. Once again my baby did not make it. He/She got caught and implanted in my tube. Therefor i had my second miscarriage as an ectopic. Now two months later i have had 1 AF waiting on another. My best friend is pregnant and i am so happy for her but still feel the depressing feeling that i will never get to carry a baby to full term. I kept having anxiety attacks when i saw her and felt like a horrible person, and best friend. I went to my doctor and was put on depression meds. I starting slipping in my school work and then my grandfather passed away. i am happy to say that i am slowly coming off the meds. the doctor gave me the ok to start again right away. although after two miscarriages me and my boyfriend are holding off another month or two. The thought of losing another is so scary for me but not as scary as not being able to try for my baby. I just was looking for someone to talk to and maybe friend. its hard to talk to my friends about this stuff. they just dont understand. Thank you for reading and i look forward to meeting you!