I've forgotten what it's like to be truly happy...**UPDATE**
Have any of you young moms out there ever been in my shoes? I feel like there isn't much left to live for these days except DS. I guess I just really miss being a teenager. Then again, I didn't really choose to be a parent. I blame myself a lot of the time for not standing up to SO and his mom. I really want to leave him, but I don't have the resources or the courage to do so.
Today, mostly due to of the supportive comments, I decided to leave SO. I'm all packed and am waiting for my mom to get off work to come get us. It sucks, but I think I'm doing the right thing. I left a note on the bed telling him my reasons. He'll most likely get it when he gets off work at nine.