I kind of bottled everything up and I am so emotional today (i kind of feel trapped empty and alone, totally the pregnancy hormones to blame and the fact i realized all my friends went/are going on vacation this week which leaves me with my parents & i am going insane already) but anywaysss long story short when i found out i was pregnant, i kept it from my BD cause we had stop seeing each other and kind of went our own seperate ways (which was fine in my book, found out he was a real dbag) but anyways when i finally had the balls to tell him. he made it seem like he cared well at least for the first hour or so. then when we finally got to see eachother in person, the mofo was like well "kids werent in the plan right now & its not a good time since i am moving out of state and persuing a career in my major" & when i said abortion was not an option, he says well i dont want to get to you having the baby and you not give it up. (wellll i changed my mind because i had support from my parents that i didnt know i would have AND i am adopted myself, and it kind of messes with the childs head. dont get me wrong i LOVE my adopted parents but theres always a lot of what ifs. (but its never a wrong choice for adoption.)) and by the end of the coversation he makes a joke about "living his life" & I'm going to be calling angry and all emotional about him "living out his life" REALLY? like really? i havent even called him once. but anyways... for like a week he made an effort to make sure i was okay and was really willing to give me what i needed (maybe to convince me to give up the baby). every ounce of my body cant stand him or the fact that he left his child.. but what aggrivates me is the fact that hes paid for NUMEROUS ammounts of girls to get abortions before me. like are you serious? and not to mention the fact his cousin said i was a "fuck up and a mistake" just because i stood my ground about MY moral values about giving my baby up for adoption because its MY body im a fuck up.. SERIOUSLY? im so hurt over the situation and everything else. I deleted him off of facebook and unfollowed him on twitter just because i cant deal with him really forgetting he has a child on the way. and of course i cry almost everynight just because my son wont grow up with a father, and i know how it feels i didnt have mine for 8 years and we are so far from being close its not even funny. i just ughhhhh i dont know. OH and to top it off, he's really trying to out run this whole friggin child support thing. My parents mention him to one lawyer for child support & i am assuming they served him papers at his job or something (since i dont have a house address) he up and QUIT HIS JOB and works else where.. seriously? i really dont get it at all. i just wish i didnt miss him so much let alone be so hurt over my baby boy not having a dad. oh and he has no idea his "first born" will be a boy. ahh i am so emotional these days..
sorry for the rant if it even made sense, its just nice to get everything off my chest once in a while.
but if you did read the whole thing thanks :)
ahah yess agreed!
Quoting AubreeGrace17:What a fagg lol
Quoting Teenmommy1119:
Oh he is. & I love how he can go out and audition for a show & post it all on YouTube and everything else. -____- like I don't get it. It's like I don't exist
Quoting AubreeGrace17:I'm really sorry. He sounds like a freaking asshole.
he is such an ass! you dont need him if he is like that. maybe one day he see what he is missing in his son & you! if not, then just be strong! kuddos for being strong minded enough to not let him talk you into an abortion or giving up the baby! they can be way harder than they sound! & screw whoever has anything bad to say about it! i really hope things get better!
& ps from personal experience with my dad & my brother, he can run all he wants, but these child support people are ruthless! they stop at nothing to make him either pay up, go to jail, or even give up his rights... whatever you decide is best!.
if he gives up his rights, does he still have to pay? i would LOVE for him to give up his rights. & he even agreed to doing so since "he had no option in the situation"
Quoting BabyRiley1113:he is such an ass! you dont need him if he is like that. maybe one day he see what he is missing in his son & you! if not, then just be strong! kuddos for being strong minded enough to not let him talk you into an abortion or giving up the baby! they can be way harder than they sound! & screw whoever has anything bad to say about it! i really hope things get better!
& ps from personal experience with my dad & my brother, he can run all he wants, but these child support people are ruthless! they stop at nothing to make him either pay up, go to jail, or even give up his rights... whatever you decide is best!.
i went through something similar with my first sons father. Expect we stayed together and he was supportive. Actually he PRETENDED to be. He cheated on me the ENTIRE time. Once i was actually out picking out our sons crib while he was home cheating on me with his pregnant ex girlfriend. Just be glad you realized he was a jerk now, instead of later. He'll regret it one day, and you can let your son know that his dad was no good. But you can still be a great mom, your already doing great. Remember your a woman, and you dont need a man to play dad. You can do anything. One day youll find someone worthy of your love and deserves to be in your sons life. Until then, keep your head up. Things always find a way to fall into place.
if he gives up his rights then he will have what he is asking for, no say so or anything to do with the baby EVER again. i know it might not be what you want, but if he isnt going to help you, why give him the option to have the opportunity later on down the line to change his mind and fight for custoody just to be spiteful (like many idiotic men tend to do.)
Quoting Teenmommy1119:if he gives up his rights, does he still have to pay? i would LOVE for him to give up his rights. & he even agreed to doing so since "he had no option in the situation"
Quoting BabyRiley1113:he is such an ass! you dont need him if he is like that. maybe one day he see what he is missing in his son & you! if not, then just be strong! kuddos for being strong minded enough to not let him talk you into an abortion or giving up the baby! they can be way harder than they sound! & screw whoever has anything bad to say about it! i really hope things get better!
& ps from personal experience with my dad & my brother, he can run all he wants, but these child support people are ruthless! they stop at nothing to make him either pay up, go to jail, or even give up his rights... whatever you decide is best!.
That is awful, I'm so sorry you aren't getting the support from him that you and the baby both deserve! From the child of a single mom, I can tell you that I don't care about my dead beat dad (I actually grew up with him for a few years). The fact that my mom raised and cared for me by herself makes her that much more precious to me. You'll be a great mommy and your boy will feel the same!
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- Teenmommy1119
on Jul. 30, 2012 at 12:18 AM