In my last post i may have said things were looking up, when in reality theyre were headed for the biggest downfall ever. Im beyond depressed, i do NOT want to take medication for it because im simply annoyed by the fact i've been on it my whole life and it hasnt done anything for me but make me space out. As for relationships i give up. I truly find no desire in dating or even talking to a guy. As for friends, its pointless. I don't even try to talk to people. My living situation is unhealthy for me and the baby. I've complained to my mom thousands of times about getting rid of our dog because she keeps using the bathroom everywhere in the house. My sister also keeps her little hamsters in my room which was fine until she started not cleaning their cages and actually started cleaning them and leaving the bags on the floor. Its just disgusting and i feel trapped because there is NO where to escape. Im stuck inhaling these smells from these animals. They say if i were to tell anyone about this stuff with our house id come off as a scumbag, but in reality its not me who is living this way. Im put into this predictament because i have no job. I really don't think at this point it would be healthy for me to raise a baby in this enviroment.
Do you have any friends you could stay with? If not, maybe look into finding a women's shelter or something.
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- maxzinedanielle
on Aug. 18, 2012 at 2:31 PM